i've been doing pretty good lately. i've said it before, distraction is the best medicine. I'm definitely healthier, and happier than i have been for quite a while. all i needed was to spend more time out of westchester, and keep my mind off things. boys always get me started towards that, because they keep my mind off of well, itself i guess, better than anything, and all i have to do is keep up that momentum even as i'm getting a bit sick of them, and craving some renewed sense of novelty.

i still have been accomplishing little lately, but it is really my number one priority to be happy and healthy. i'm feeling a lot better. physically and mentally.. though there are still those nights when i go to bed in westchester, and just feel so stuck and useless. but i'm making progress, and progress is key, though i've never been a patient girl. not that you would believe that based on the way i live. but i've been having lots more fun, and more appropriate fun for me, more music, more of the things that make me happy. i am smoking too much weed though, which obviously isn't helping my productivity level, but i'm not drinking any more than usual. i deserve to mellow out a little anyways. i have been getting more exercise, eating better, sleeping better, laughing more, etc.. so i can't not give myself credit at least for that.