i had this dream the other night for the first time in a while... it's the only reoccurring dream i've ever had, and i must have had it at least 10 times over the past 6 months or so.
it's always packing, usually i'm moving, sometimes going on vacation or something, but i'm packing, and i never have enough time to pack everything. i'm always hurriedly grasping to pack all the things that are most important to me. but there's never enough time, never enough room for everything in the car, i'm always finding something else i can't bear to leave behind.. and so on.

pretty telling, huh? i don't think i've ever had such outwardly obvious, smack you in the face symbolism in my dreams before.. usually it's all so much more abstract. i would easily just say it's about my inability to move on, and let go of things, create a new stage in my life.. my desperate grasping for the calm and confidence of the past. all the time i used to have ahead of me. my sick sentimentalism.
but there are a lot of different meanings i could assign to it, and they would all probably apply pretty accurately. it applies to a lot of things in my life. hopefully i'll remedy that soon. the sooner the better, i don't want to waste my youth and my life.