Girlfriend Guys
Some guys are just girlfriend guys. They always like to be in relationships. I was with one last night, late, after a very nice Thanksgiving with my family, and some drinks with a bunch of girls.
My first serious boyfriend (at 17) was one of them, and it was really nice, we're even still buddies, but I'm thinking it's just really not my thing. Don't get me wrong, I think it's' wonderful that some guys are into monogamy, instead of just fucking around, but something about it feels wrong. Like they can't not be in a relationship.
I've definitely never been a boyfriend girl. I don't just have relationships, I don't want them. Not unless I'm super, super, super crazy about the guy, and that doesn't happen all that often. It's not worth it, or enjoyable for very long, unless I'm MAD about the guy. I don't care about anything really, unless I CARE(!!!). Unless I feel like it's the end of the world if it's not in my life. I like it that way. I love to be passionate, and it gives me a lot of freedom. The things and people I don't care about don't really faze me. I suppose it makes me a bit selfish. I've been breaking hearts these past couple years. I guess it's just my turn.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Sunday, November 2, 2008
11/2/2008
Sometimes I panic, and I feel like, "oh my god, I've wasted this whole past year. I haven't accomplished anything since I've been back home! All I've done is bounced around shitty administrative jobs, and consumed a disgustingly large amount of alcohol."
But then I think about it for a minute, and find that that is really not true. I've had plenty of fun. I've spent a lot of time with my family, which makes me really happy. They are so special. I went to China! That's huge for me. Those two things alone would have made the year successful. I've gotten back in touch with some really special old friends. I've played with my dog and kitties. Gone to some fantastic shows. Reacquainted myself with my favorite city.
It wasn't half as productive as I would have liked, but by no means was it a wasted year.
But then I think about it for a minute, and find that that is really not true. I've had plenty of fun. I've spent a lot of time with my family, which makes me really happy. They are so special. I went to China! That's huge for me. Those two things alone would have made the year successful. I've gotten back in touch with some really special old friends. I've played with my dog and kitties. Gone to some fantastic shows. Reacquainted myself with my favorite city.
It wasn't half as productive as I would have liked, but by no means was it a wasted year.
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