I found something really funny the other day... I was going through my closet, trying to get rid of some of the crap I've compiled over the years, and I found a ton of old notebooks from high school and college. I didn't look through much, but a quote in this one paper I wrote like 7 years ago was pretty funny, because it's so similar to things I say now...

"...I feel like my brain hasn't been functioning properly in years..so that also makes it harder to be interesting, and productive too, I think."

It's funny, cause I think of my brain as working so much better back then, or thinking clearer, at least.

I was talking about how I love to write, and make art, and do it every day, even though I have no talent, and am "not a very creative or inventive person".
I still feel that way now, only now it also applies to other aspects of my life, which is depressing.

My problems then were different than the ones I have now, but look- I attribute them to the same thing. My awful brain.
I do look at it differently though, back then I didn't feel responsible for it, which I think is fair, I didn't know what to do about it, I went to lots of doctors, and took lots of pills. But by now I feel responsible for the state of my brain, which I also think is fair. I'm an adult now, the state of my well being is entirely in my hands. I'm responsible for my life.. which shows I'm not doing the best job, but at least I have grown up a lot since I wrote that paper. I'm always gonna be stuck with my brain, I'm cool with that.