two new beginnings at the same time.
fun and invigorating, but a little scary/stressful. i need something to work and last and not be new anymore.
and as much as i've hated my long and current stagnation, or whatever i should call it, i also have been so comfortable and free of responsibilities. it's been a lot of fun.
I hate working dull jobs, and being bored out of my mind and exhausted. but i'm really motivated this time. i want to move to the city. it's what i think would be good for me right now. i'll be a lot happier. i don't belong in westchester. i never have. it's not me. never has been, never will be. i've always known that. it's blindingly obvious to everyone.